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Starting Anew (5/?)
Jun. 2nd, 2011 03:55 pm
Chapter 5
Jared lifted Alex out of his booster seat and placed him on his hip while he grabbed his backpack/diaper bag. Alex rested his head on Jared’s shoulder and placed his ring and middle finger in his mouth and absentmindedly sucked them for comfort. Jared arched and eyebrow at his son as he shut the door. “You know you’re getting a bit big for that right?” Alex only gave Jared a passive look, who in turn, chuckled. He walked up and entered the office building and headed straight for the elevators. He leant over and showed Alex which button to press. Once on the correct floor he headed straight towards Sophia’s office. He knocked twice and waited for her to tell him to come in.
Sophia motioned for him to take a seat and he did and waited for her to finish her phone call. He only waited a few seconds before she hung up and gave him her full attention. “Jared. Why didn’t you tell me you had a boyfriend?”
Jared gave her a confused look. “Because I don’t have one?” It came out more of a question than a statement.
“Jared,” Sophia sighed. “I would just like straight forward answers. I’m not upset I just need to know if this thing is serious and can be used to our advantage, or if this is just a fling that can turn around and bite us in the ass.”
“Wait, I don’t even know what you’re talking about. I’m not dating anyone.”
Sophia let out a sigh before handing over a magazine. Jared read the front and quickly flipped to the article. “Close friends say that this is nothing serious just a way of coping with the stress of the separation and impending court date. Jared Padalecki never has been and never will be gay. Another source says that they were together at a local Toys R Us looking for toys for the youngest Padalecki.” Jared looked up from the article. “I swear on everything that I didn’t know about this. I’ve only hung out with Jensen a few times, and only a few times has he been with both Alex and I. I did meet him at the Toys R Us though, Alex had walked away from me and he found him. But I swear we aren’t dating.” Sophia arched and eyebrow as Jared continued his nervous rant. “I mean Chad wants us to. I mean according to him we already are. I mean I like Jensen and everything I just don’t know if I should date him with everything going on. I mean I was going to talk to him about it and see if-and I’m rambling aren’t I?” Sophia nodded. “Sorry.”
“Jared I’m not upset. I mean this whole thing could me to our advantage. I mean you pretty much have the custody thing in the bag but this can be used to ensure that you can provide Alex with a stable environment.” She shifted through some papers. “From what I gathered that was going to be a good part of their argument; that you couldn’t provide a stable place for him to grow up.”
“But it isn’t much of a case. A lot of actors and actresses are single parents.”
“Yes but they hire nanny’s, which is something you refuse to do.” Jared nodded in agreement. “But.” She started. “If you two don’t work out this whole thing will come back and bite us in the ass.”
***
Jensen was on his way to Jared’s house. He had called about 15 minutes ago and asked him to come over. Jensen knocked and didn’t wait long for the door to open. He was greeted with a disheveled Jared and a crying Alex. He was kind of surprised that Alex was mumbling words out. He couldn’t really make them out through the tears but he understood he was upset. Jared motioned for Jensen to come in, Jared tried to sit Alex on the kitchen counter but he only cried louder.
“Alex please, I have to put you down so I can make sure you’re okay.” Jared and Jensen both clearly heard the cried out no. Jared didn’t know if he should be happy that Alex spoke or if he should be upset he said no. “Buddy, please.” He asked pacing through the kitchen. He tried to sit him down again but Alex kept his arm firmly around Jared’s neck.
“Noooooo.” Alex sobbed out.
Jared rubbed Alex’s back and tried to comfort him. Jensen looked at the pair, Alex’s face was red and covered in tears and snot. His lip looked swollen and he was inconsolable. Jared looked like he was close to tears himself. He was trying to get Alex to stop crying but Jensen could tell by the tone of his voice he didn’t know what to do. “What happened?” Jensen asked.
“I was in the bathroom and I left Alex in the family room with his toys then next thing I know I hear a bunch of thuds and Alex starts screaming. He fell down the stairs. I think he thought I was upstairs and tried to come find me but he fell. He fell down the stairs.” Jared took a deep breath. “He won’t let me see if he’s okay.”
Jensen could tell that Jared was about to panic. “Hey, hey it’s okay.” Jensen moved to stand behind Jared so Alex could see him. “Alex. Daddy’s gotta see if you’re okay.” Alex shook his head no. “I know it hurts but Daddy has to see. Want me to hold you in my lap so he can check?” Alex waited all of 2 seconds before he was reaching for Jensen. Jensen hopped up onto the counter and gently took Alex from Jared. Alex’s tears had slightly subsided, they were still rolling down his cheeks but the only sounds he now made were hitches in his breath. “How does he look?”
Jared was looking Alex over. “He has a swollen bottom lip, a bit of rug burn on his cheek,” Jared was going to give him the okay when he noticed Alex’s left arm was swollen and bruised. Jared touched it and was going to move it when Alex let out a wail and flinched away from his touch and tried to move inside Jensen. “I think he broke his arm.” Jared eye’s widened. “Oh my god he broke his arm.” Jensen could see the panic quickly cross Jared’s features and tears spring in his eyes.
“Jared, Jared.” Jensen warned. “Don’t cry, you’re only going to make Alex cry. He we have to get him to the hospital so he can see a doctor.” Jared didn’t move he only stared at Alex’s arm. “Jared!” Jared came back to himself.
“Oh, Right.”
*****
Turns out, Alex did break his right arm, and sprained his left wrist; Alex obviously tried to stop his fall. The doctor had given Alex medication to put him to sleep so he could set the bone. Now Alex slept peacefully in the backseat, right arm in a green cast, left wrist in an ace bandage, and cheek with a huge blue Band-Aid, while Jared and Jensen waited patiently at the drive through pharmacy of Rite Aid for Alex’s prescription to be filled. Jared sat in the passenger seat looking distantly out the window.
“You okay?” Jensen asked quietly. Jared nodded. “You sure?” Jared shook his head no. “He’s okay. Why are you so upset?” Jared shook his head unable to answer. “Jare?”
“I-I promised Alex that I would never let him get hurt.”
“Well that was a silly promise. He’s a kid; he’s guaranteed to get hurt.” Jensen said with a half-smile.
“No you don’t understand!” Jared snapped before calming himself. “Alex…Alex had a rough 2 years.”
“He’s only 2.”
“I know.” Jared said in a low voice. “My ex, she had a boyfriend, he was abusive…to Alex. From what I gather he never laid a hand on her but he…Alex was like his toy. At first I didn’t know. I only had him every other weekend. I guess I should’ve known something was wrong with the way he would throw fits when his mom would come to pick him up. He never was upset set when she dropped him off though, he almost welcomed it. When he stopped talking I just thought he didn’t really like me anymore, but then his God father told me Alex didn’t talk to him anymore either.” Jared put his head on the head rest and closed eyes. “Then Chad called me in hysterics. I had no idea what he was saying. He was yelling and screaming and I’m pretty sure he was crying. He asked me what the hell I was doing to Alex; he called me a sick fuck and threatened to take Alex from me. I finally got him to tell me what he was talking about. He found bruises all over Alex’s back and legs in the shape of hands. He said he was changing his diaper and his butt was just a giant bruise.” Tears sprung into Jared’s eyes.
Jensen unhooked his seatbelt and leaned over to give Jared a comforting hug. “Hey…shhh it’s okay.” He held Jared and slowly calmed him down.
They sat in silence in an embrace until a throat cleared and Jensen turned to see the pharmacist. “Yes?”
“Sorry. The doctor forgot to call ahead so we could fill the prescription. It’ll be about a half an hour until it’s ready.”
“That’s fine.” Jensen said with a smile. The pharmacist smiled and walked away. Jensen looked back at Jared and gave him a small smile.
“You okay?”
Jared nodded and they fell into silence. “Why were you so mad?”
“When?” Jensen asked.
“When you left that voicemail.”
“Oh. Umm…there was a story about us…in a magazine.”
“I know. I read it.”
“It said we were dating.”
“So why were you mad?”
“It said we’re dating, and we aren’t.”
“You’re upset we aren’t dating?” Jared said with a smirk.
“I never said that.” Jensen said with a blush.
“Yes you did.”
“No I didn’t.”
“I asked why you were upset, and you said, and I quote ‘it said we’re dating, and we aren’t’. So obviously you want to date me.” Jared said dimples showing. Ignoring the fact that he was extremely nervous about this whole situation, and hesitant to start a relationship.
“Th-that’s not what I meant.” Jensen stuttered, blush staining his cheeks when Jared unbuckled and moved closer to him.
“Yes it is.”
“No it isn’t.” Jensen squeaked out.
“I think it is.” Jared said in a whisper before pressing his lips against Jensen’s. Jensen gasped into the kiss and froze. Jared’s lips were slightly chapped, but they were warm. Jared was about to pull back and apologize when Jensen hesitantly moved his lips against his. Jared sucked a plump upper lip into his mouth and slid his eyes closed. Jensen let out a whimper and cupped Jared’s cheek. The kiss was gentle and exploratory. Jared gave Jensen a few more pecks before pulling back. Jensen let out a shaky breath and blinked before pulling back. “You okay?” Jared whispered. Jensen quickly nodded before swooping back in.
They sat outside Jared’s house trying to soak up the last few moments they had together. “You know,” Jensen said quietly. “Despite the past few hours two good things have happened.”
“What?” Jared asked curiously.
“Well first, we kissed, which I am extremely happy about, and second but certainly not least, Alex spoke.” Jensen gave Jared a smile.
Jared sat a few moments confused until it finally clicked in his brain. “Oh my god he did!” He turned in his seat to see Alex looking at him groggily. “You spoke!!” Jared fumbled with his seatbelt and the door before climbing out and getting Alex out of his seat and holding him and spinning excitedly. “You spoke! I’m so proud of you!” Jared kissed all over Alex who whined in agitation but it didn’t bother Jared. Jared spun around a few more time before turning to Jensen, who was only a few steps away leaning against the car. “Dude he talked!”
“I know I was there.”
“He said no!” Jared said with a huge smile.
Jensen playfully rolled his eyes. “You are the only parent in the world who gets excited that their kid told them no.”
“I know it just…it’s amazing.” Jared couldn’t help the ear splitting grin that was plastered to his face.
“If you smile any harder you’re gonna get stuck that way.” Jensen teased.
“Shut up.” Jared said softly before leaning in and stealing a kiss. The kiss was only a few second then Jared heard the sound of a camera snapping pictures. They quickly pulled apart to see a few paparazzi snapping pictures of the intimate moment. Anger quickly crossed Jared’s features and he was about to tell them to fuck off. Jensen stopped him.
“Hey it’s okay. I need to go anyway.” Jared nodded. “I have friends coming into town on Friday they want me to be at their show on Saturday, if you don’t have plans you should come with me.” Jared opened his mouth to agree but Jensen stopped him again. “Don’t say yes yet. Just let me know before 6 on Saturday night okay?” Jared nodded. “Bye.” Jensen slid from against Jared’s truck and walked to his car parked on the other side. He really wanted to kiss Jared bye but didn’t want anything else to be caught on camera.
****
Jared wasn’t able to make it to the show that Saturday. Neither was he able to get together for anything. He had filmed a pilot for a show a few months back and they just got word it was picked up. He has spent the last 3 weeks filming and trying to take care of Alex alone minus the onset daycare and the few times he took him to his regular daycare center. His routine had been set. Wake up at 5am, shower, dress, and make breakfast. Wake up Alex at 6am, eat (his own food) and feed him, get him dressed. 6:45am call to see if Alex can come to set that day, depending on the answer pack his backpack with snacks, extra pull-up, extra clothes, his cup, a frozen bottle of water and a few flavor drink packets. Load him up in the car and drive to set or drop him off at daycare. Filming from 8am until 8pm (picking up Alex at 5 and bringing him to onset daycare anyway), with a few breaks in between. Load Alex into the car and giving him a snack to hold him over until they get home. Cooking a quick dinner and eating. Giving Alex a wipe down or, with a meltdown, giving Alex a full bath. Alex in bed by 9, he cleans up any messes made, study the lines and scenes that were set to be filmed the next day, then be in bed anywhere between 11pm and 1am, to turn around and do it all over again. And in between all that busyness he had been texting and, if time allowed, calling Jensen. Jensen tried to help he even offered to stay at his house and watch Alex there since he was on spring break for work for two weeks bet Jared didn’t want to bug him
To say he was exhausted was an understatement. He held that routine for three weeks in a row and they finally let them have seven days off. Seven days of doing whatever the hell it is he wanted to do, and what he wanted to do was sleep. He called Chad and begged him to take Alex for the first 3 days just so he could sleep in and Chad had picked him up a few hours ago. Jensen had left him a message to let him know he was coming over. Jared told him he wouldn’t be the best company but Jensen insisted on coming over anyway. Jared must’ve fallen asleep because next thing he knew Jensen was gently shaking him awake. He looked up at a smiling Jensen before looking around he found the clock but his eyes were still fuzzy from sleep. “Time’s it?”
“10:30. Did you eat?”
“Yeah.” Jared nodded still half sleep.
“When?”
“6:30.”
“When did Alex get picked up?”
“9?” Jared wasn’t too sure.
“Hungry?” Jared closed his eyes and nodded his answer to Jensen. “Come on. Get up.” Jensen helped Jared up from the couch and led the sleepy man into the kitchen. “I made pork roast, mashed potatoes, corn, and broccoli.” Jensen pulled out the containers and fixed Jared a plate. “I bought a pie, I can cook, but I can’t bake for shit.” Jared chuckled and tucked into his food. Jensen watched as Jared greedily ate his fill. He stood and grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge and sat it in front of Jared. Jared sipped from the bottle and quickly polished off his plate of food and the pie the Jensen sat in front of him. “Go take a shower and I’ll give you a massage.” Jared looked up and gave Jensen a grateful smile before slipping away to do as told.
Jensen cleaned up the mess the made in the kitchen and resealed the food and placed the containers in Jared’s fridge. He went into the living room and grabbed his overnight bag. He pulled out a pair of sleep pants and changed clothes. He pulled out a bottle of massage oil then headed upstairs. He only had to guess walk a few steps to see into Jared’s room. Jared was combing out his wet hair and turned to see Jensen standing nervously in the doorway. Jared smiled before finishing his task and lying on the bed. Jensen hesitated before moving towards the bed, it was a huge bed. He said as much.
Jared chuckled. “I’m a tall person. I was excited when I found this bed.”
“What is it?”
“An Eastern King.”
“It’s huge is what it is.” Jensen said in aw before climbing onto the bed. He tried to get into a comfortable position but nothing was working. “Is it okay if I sit on your butt?”
Jared laughed. “Sure.”
Jensen moved to straddle Jared. He sat gently on Jared before opening the bottle and pour oil onto his hand. He rubbed them together before starting on Jared’s shoulders. Jared let out a moan of satisfaction as his tired and tense muscles were forced to relax. His hot showers helped enough to get him to sleep but this was a whole different level of relax. He let out a grunt of slight pain when Jensen moved to his upper back. “Sorry.
“”S okay.” He mumbled, to relax to even care about the slight pain. He felt Jensen reach the middle of his back but not much after that. Jensen messaged Jared’s bad shoulders and arms. He knew Jared was sleep before he even finished his back but he decided to finish knowing it would be worth it in the morning. When he had finally finished he placed a gentle kiss on the back of the sleeping man’s neck before slowly sliding off. He just got off the bed when he heard a hardly audible thank you. He turned and smiled at Jared and gave a low you’re welcome before leaving. He found the bathroom and washed his hands before looking for the guest bedroom. He found it and quickly crawled into bed. He dug out his cellphone and set an alarm to wake up at 9 so he could get things for breakfast and cook. He turned the volume up and stuck his phone under the pillow before falling asleep himself.
Jensen woke up in the middle of the night to what sounded like whimpers. He blindly reached for his phone and read the time 3:34 am. He grabbed his phone to use as a light and headed to where the sound came from. Jared was asleep but letting out a noise of protest every few moments. Jensen quietly walked into the room and crawled into Jared’s bed He tried to shake him awake but he was dead to the world. He let out a sigh before deciding to do what his mom did for him when he had a nightmare. He laid in the bed and pulled the blankets up over himself. He gently maneuvered Jared so that his head lied on his chest over his heart. He ran his fingers through Jared’s hair and whispered calming words. He had only meant to calm him down, but with Jared wrapped around him Jensen didn’t stand a chance and was soon fast asleep.
*&*&*&*
A/N: Okay so chapter five is done. And I have some….kind of bad news. I got a job!!! Which is a totally good thing for me but it’s a bad thing for you. It’s a live in Nanny job, I’m there 4-5 days in a row then I’m home for 3 days. Which means I’ll have even less time to write than I already do now. I start on the 10th so I’m going to try and have at least one or two more chapters before I go. I’m sorry and I hope you like this chapter and there will definitely be a Jared/Jensen smut scene soon.
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